Friend

I have this friend that every time I wanna run away brings me back to reality, helps me stay grounded and never fails to make me smile. A friend that has so much patience for my ups and downs even though I am reminded that I am a difficult person on a somewhat regular basis. Sometimes I wonder when my friend will realize that it is not necessary to put up with my crap and run, but for some reason this friend is there to answer the phone almost every time I call.

My stepmom told me growing up that you are better off in life with one true friend that a hundred acquaintances. Granted I have more than one really good friend, this one has made me see what she meant. She was right, having that person there makes so many of the things that come up in a day ok. So I guess I can open my mind to the idea that maybe, just maybe she was right about other things too. (Don't tell her I said that though!!)

Life's Little Suprises, And The Big Ones Too

Life is full of so many surprises...ones that make you laugh, ones that make you cry and some just leave you standing there completely dumbfounded. Last night brought a surprise that left me feeling all of the above. I laugh because with the ways things are going why not have one more crappy thing happen, cry because I am not totally sure how to fix it and dumbfounded because, well I was shocked. So where do you go when you are completely losing everything?? And what do you do when the reason that something so crappy happened is based on a situation that never should have been that way in the first place? When do people realize that you have to do for you children first and realize that you will get to them when you can? And honestly who does this shit to family? We are trying so hard to salvage something, just grasp one little thing, as it all falls apart... and yet we still can't catch a break. So I sit here, surprisingly with a smile, knowing that we will soar over this hurdle too. Plus where would crying get me anyway, no time for makeup running down my face today. Bring it on world, I am ready to take the next surprise head on!!

The First Interview

Ok so for those wondering how the interview went on Wednesday...I was going to wait to post about it cause I honestly don't know and have no idea when they will let me know. Here is what I do know: it only took 15 minutes, not sure if that is a good thing or a bad thing. I think I did well with my answers based on all the advice I got, but who really knows what they are looking for. So if for some reason I bombed this interview, and I would hope not, the bright side is that it was a good practice for the one I have a week from Monday.

Turkey Day!!

How do you spend your Turkey Day? Most do it with family...Dave and I are not most. We decided that taking the little ones camping was more our style. So we drove to Willits and are "roughing it" at the KOA. We have a cute little cabin, right next to the bathrooms, a TV and VCR so the kids don't miss their bedtime movie, and as of right now we have turkey drumsticks on the BBQ. Yep a Dave and Tammy Thanksgiving for sure. So to all you traditional people Happy Thanksgiving from our family to yours!!

Resources

I find the more this career searching process moves forward the more exciting it gets. At this point I have participated in quite a few ride-alongs and now I have spent a good amount of time at the police academy volunteering my time. So as the nerves build up I ease my mind with all the new resources I have encountered. It honestly feels great!!

Today I went to class to take my test and then I went to the academy. When I arrived I checked in with the police chief that runs this part of the scenarios and shared my exciting news. He congratulated me and told me to sit down. We talked and he coached me for a half hour on the oral board. Then he decided it would be best for me to dispatch calls for the scenarios so that when I go to my interview next week I can honestly say I have experienced dispatch. I picked it up so fast and was highly praised at the end for my ability to run the calls with only a few minutes of training. So tomorrow I will be back out and getting a little more dispatch experience before I head off to work for the night.

I have been through so much in my life already. As much as I have thoroughly enjoyed every experience and aspect of the road behind me, there really is something so amazing in this experience. I think the past was based on my actions as a partner and now I am doing something that only involves me. I am becoming a successful women, a little more each day, and I am so proud of who I have become.

No Time to Freak Out

So as I mentioned before I passed the test for the first department and I have scheduled my interview for December 8th. Well last night, after a very long and trying day I checked my email to find that I passed the test for the other department too. I was so excited and called to day to schedule the appointment for the interview. Imagine my surprise when the said I am scheduled for next Wednesday. I actually said to the lady om the phone, "That doesn't even give me time to be nervous!" She totally laughed. So things are going in the right direction and it is happening so fast now. Part of me wants to laugh and the other part of me just wants to cry.

So there you have it, I need to go shopping for something to wear. Wish me luck!!!

No Time to Slow Down

I seem to be in this place where happiness collides with insanity. I feel really happy with things yet I feel like I am on this crazy spiral that I can't seem to slow down. I guess as long as I can keep a sincere smile on my face I will do just fine.

I know I say this all the time, but honestly my kids and my friends really are my sanity now a days. They are the things that make my everyday ok, better than ok, they make it great. There is this part of me that loves the unsure feeling of where the next day will take me and another part of me that just wants to know how it will all turn out in the end.

So I spent yet another day out at the academy, today I was playing the the domestic violence scenario. It was seriously so much fun since a friend was playing my "boyfriend". It makes the bickering so much fun when it is someone you know. I am done out there for a few days and will go back for a half day on Friday. I think Friday they are going to let me practice dispatch, woohoo, practice for my future!!

The Latest

Wow it's been a while since I have even logged in...sorry!! I spent the majority of last week doing role playing at the police academy. It was so fun, but acting like a suicidal crazy women really does take an emotional toll after the 26th time. Fortunately they broke it up with a few building searches for me. So I finish my 4 day commitment, but apparently they love me out there and I have been asked to come back tomorrow. This week is the DUI and domestic violence, ha ha sounds fun!!!

So for the good news, I got the letter from the police department to make the test score official. Even better it included my invitation to the oral board interviews the beginning of December. Wow, I know I can't believe it is coming up so fast. I am so excited and scared all at the same time. Other then that I am waiting to hear back from the other department.

So there you have it my life wrapped up in two paragraphs! Hope you are all doing well and I will post again soon.

I Did It!!

I made myself proud yet again. I passed the dispatcher test for the police department. I actually scored in the 80th percentile for the whole state, yeah the whole entire state, it honestly feels really good. So the next step is the oral board interview which will be scheduled when the department is done making some supervisor changes, hopefully not too long.

Other than that I know I have been MIA for a little while. Things have gotten so busy and really stressful. I am trying to manage my emotions in one of the hardest times of my life. I am truly so thankful for my friends, without them I have no idea where I would be. The keep me sane and grounded and help me to remember that I am a really good person, sometimes you just need to know that you are a good person.

Rock the Vote!

Did you vote? I would hope so, cause I hate those who don't vote and then think their voice should be heard when they are bitching about the outcome.

I voted today, and although I voted in a way that got a few people fired up, I stand proud of my vote, my bleiefs and my right to have a say in matters (even if you think I shouldn't). Oh isn't it great to be an American. So I will be one of the many Americans plastered in from of the TV tonight to see where our country goes from here.

So I leave you all with this image and wish you all a happy election day!!

Happy November!

Can you believe that it is November? 2008 is almost over!! To be honest with the bumps in the road of this whole year I am ready to take on anything 2009 has to offer. Although part of me fears anything that could be worse than this year, the other side of me thinks it has to be better.

So now with Thanksgiving on it's way it is time to start to think of all the things you are thankful for.What are you thankful for???